Tuesday, July 31, 2007
it would be a shame to turn this page, and write an ending to this chapter.

{Edited}
I hate(by the way hate is love) Shimin & Trina! They claim that Edison Chen is theirs even though they obviously know that he's mine! :D
<3
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Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But sometimes I just felt I could give up.

I can't help but breakdown and cry.

P/S if that was for me, I'm really sorry. I don't even know how I'm feeling now, so I really can't give you an answer. I tried replying your letter, but I guess even if I wrote something, it wouldn't make any sense. Thanks for asking though.

But at least you're still my day late friend
6:54 PM

Monday, July 30, 2007
We'll see our name in city lights.


It's easy to say,"I hate you,"
but it's so hard to mean it.

Dearest Sean Yip,
we'll all be here for you. I hope you're feeling a little better now. Please stay strong alright? We love you.
<3
Dearest Marilyn, Please cheer up too! Don't get so stressed up alright? Be a happy kid(!!) At least try.
<3

Library session with the brudders(Yo!) after school was awesome! Too bad Filbert couldn't make it =( All those silent laughter and everything. Much love. & I finally ate hawker centre food today. Damn goood! :D

We decided to plan Trina's and my birthday party and another of our fellow brudder's birthday too! :D Sean suggested that we should invite the whole waterpolo team and rugby team for my birthday. HAHA(!!)

I love planning for parties(:
(Can you fly back ): ?)

Bye!
Must Diet, diet, diet! Exercise, exercise, exercise!
&,

I LOVE YOU LAH, BRUDDER!
Though I said I didn't love you today, but you know, that's just a slip of tongue. You know deep inside me I love you truckloads alright! HAHA! This makes me gay because I love you. See! I'm willing to turn gay for you! <3

But at least you're still my day late friend
3:50 AM

Sunday, July 29, 2007
Words, Hands, Heart.

{Edited/8:18pm}

The run just now felt really good. The windy weather just adds on to the super nice feeling! :D I feel so dead at home now and I feel like going to Bintan this coming weekend! (: How nice would it be huh? (If only we could go together)

Apparently, there's 4 tests on Wednesday and 2 mock tests on Tuesday. Someone just kill me. (I hate Crescent)

Because of you,
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I finally got to talk to Lee on the phone last night :D What the hell, he sucks lah. No lah, I still love him! Haha <3 I swear I almost slept while he was still on the phone ): I was that tired, moreover the bed was really tempting. & I'm sorry I didn't say bye to the people whom I was chatting with last night. Ah wells.

Oh, and I really wish Clara would do the homework that I gave her! :D I'll definitely be the first to buy that book of Clara's dreams man! :D Laugh till I get abs? Totally worth it. My twin <3

Nicole got me hooked onto Boys like Girls and Yellowcard once again and Thank You Theresa Kwok because she's my Midnight happy pill! <3

Yes, October will come soon! :D

But at least you're still my day late friend
12:38 PM

Saturday, July 28, 2007
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.

{edited}
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy.

Yadadada, I'm starting to miss Pellet and my camera like a lot now! ): I swear I'm seriously deprived of those two things ): I doubt they'll ever come back to me anymore. It has been 24 hours(!!) Gahh, if only I could report my lost to the police, Nah. Tell my how? =(

I just read the message that Han sent to Trina's phone. Somehow, Msn doesn't seem to be able to comfort me!
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Tuition in the morning. Nicole suggested that we shall all purchase Acids (just in case), but I guess there's no need for the power of acids and distilled water anymore(to me at least). The way Nicole said it was really funny. I'm sorry girl.

Art Lesson in the afternoon. Trina and I couldn't stop laughing at everything. All the ideas that we came up with were really crazy and stupid. Heh. I hate it, it has been so long and yet I still haven't completed my painting >:(

Went to the Library to study with Trina. Met up with Narmy, Shimin and Shona. It's so funny because we were in the Quiet Reading Room and we had to really keep quiet. Even if it's just tearing a piece of paper. HAHA(!!) Funny.

I'm having this damn bad cold now =x & I'm not able to go to inter-club, so sorry Sai Mun(!!) I can't pass you your Glamorous letter today! ):

Han's leaving tonight.
I'm sorry Michelle.
(I really didn't want to go over, it's so sad just to know that he's leaving again! Blah!!) here's the reason why =(

But at least you're still my day late friend
4:52 AM

I love you,



Happy 7th Month Baby! ♥
"Laying there with your arms around me felt so comfortable and safe.
My heart was beating a mile a minute having you so close to me.
As you played with my hair and kissed me,
I couldn't help but smile from the heart.
Could you see how much I cared from the look in your eyes,
it made me never want to let you go,to just stay wrapped in your arms forever.
Where nothing else matters, but you and me."

Nothing tastes as sweet as you,
because you're my everything.
I Love You.

But at least you're still my day late friend
12:01 AM

Friday, July 27, 2007
Because Michelle is my Mummy! {edited}

{Edited}
I'm feeling so damn it sad now. Seriously man! My heart feels like it's super damn it heavy. and I REALLY miss my camera now. I really really really really really don't like Han and Boon How (I think). They still laugh at me when my camera is missing already because then I wouldn't have their unglam photos! >:(!!! Ah!!!! But thanks for making me laugh in Keppel today. Thanks Narmy and Shimin!<3
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I'm sorry.
You may think that you're not a bit important in my life, but in actual fact, you are.
Thanks for always being there silently for me. <3

Broke-down in school today, thank you for caring! (: & now I'm feeling better, a little that is. School ended like early today. Narmy, Shimin, Trina, Michelle, Clara and I went out to meet Boon How and Han.

Lunched at Pepper Lunch! <3(!!) Went to the Better Toy Store again, played with all the toys there! Ah, such love. Oh, Weiwei came too.Went to Coffee Bean and just slacked there, then to Heeren for the wanton noodles. Met up with Bjorn and his friend for a little while. Yeah.

Cabbed back to school with Narmy, Shimin and Trina. Here's the best part :I left my camera in the cab! WTH!! All my pictures! ): Esp those of today, yknow those unglam ones! Damn it.

I'm going Keppel now & I'm damn it upset now. First it's Pellet, and now my camera! ): Why can't I just lose myself instead? Wouldn't it be better this way?

But at least you're still my day late friend
6:48 PM

Thursday, July 26, 2007
And I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.
I really don't know who are the ones who would leave and who are the ones who would stay.
I really don't know why I'm so afraid of people leaving.
I really don't know what to expect next.
I really don't know how I lost it all.
I mean, who does?
(Why can't friends forever ever come? I really feel so alone now, somehow)

Bjorn, you're right. I'm really too sensitive. But I really don't want to be like this. I really don't =(. I really want to just not care about anything and just be like you, love life. I simple can't. I tried, but I can't.

But at least you're still my day late friend
10:28 PM

You hope she knows you tried.



I'm so damn it upset now! =( I REALLY don't know where it has gone to. I know it was on my bag this morning and now it's damn it gone! ): I hope that it's either in school because it's not at home! I feel so sad! Pellet! ):

Screwed up my Chemistry paper today. I totally left the whole open-ended questions blank because I can't randomly choose numbers. HAHA(!!) Whatever man, at least I know it's because I did not study.

Han's mum came to pick Clara, Michelle and I up from school because it was raining and there was thunder! =( HAHA! Went to Heeren to eat that wanton noodle (Hello Narmy, guilty guilty man!) Oh, and I met Sai Mun there too! I owe him a letter now! Hahahahah! Glamorous!

Boon How met up with us and we went to Starbucks. Ohmygawwd! ): Calories yo. Stupid lah they, keep jacking me. what the heck! ): Clara, you're suppose to help me man! Argh. I shall learn how to say ching chong fun properly from now on! I feel so stupid about the guy being kept thing -.- To think I did not understand man! :O

Oh pellet, please come back to me (though I know you're the unreal one) But please please! I really don't want to lose you ): I'm sorry dear.

I'm going to Keppel now and once again I'll be seeing Han and Boon How there! HAHA. How stupid! ):


Sarah! :D

Look at the difference in our tan man.

But at least you're still my day late friend
7:05 PM

Wednesday, July 25, 2007
So here's the truth, for once.

{edited/12:55am}

You fly, I fly! :D
Right Theresa?
I love you very very very much! <3 Thank you. Let's go Escape soon and scream out hearts out(!!)
- - -
They ask me why do I look so upset, and I really don't know how to answer them because even I myself don't truly understand why. Everything seems so perfect now and yet it still feels so damn screwed up.

Maybe because I'm just afraid that friends would start leaving, yet again. I hope that's a good enough excuse.

One thing's for sure, I don't feel alright. I'm just not alright.

(You promised you'll never leave. You said you'll always be there. But then I realized that promises are usually meant to be broken. Please tell me I'm wrong.)

Why can't I laugh? Why must I cry?

But at least you're still my day late friend
4:17 PM

Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Share with me the secrets that you kept in.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!:D

Anyway, that's not the main point, though I love my daddy a lot! But the thing is Daddy actually allowed us(the kids) to buy 2 hamsters! OMGGG! We were begging him like crap and everything! And and he FINALLY agreed! I chose the cutest one and named it Pellet! <3

Introducing Pellet(s),

The real/ The unreal!

I love both of them. No, actually I love YOU YOU YOU the most (!!)
I love you Dear, (don't you think they look like you?)

But at least you're still my day late friend
10:10 PM

Falling,


Honestly, I really don't want to talk about school. It seriously sucks. Those chicks are the only reason of why I go to school for! :D

Mock exam got cancelled! =) I was hyperventilating when I knew about it. HAHA! Anyway, went to town with Theresa, Clara, Michelle, Narmy, Shimin and Nicole.

Went to Far East to meet Han and Boon How. Walked around and everything and in the end, we split up into three groups ):

Walked to Taka with Han, Boon how and Nicole. HAHA. I'm so addicted to the better toy shop stuff! Like I REALLY REALLY like those stuff in there. Those toys and everything, right Narmy? Especially this music thing that Nicole and I were playing. I WANT IT SO BADLY(!!)

Han and Boon How were testing me some mental toy games thing and I seriously couldn't figure it out. Blah. I WANT TO BUY THE WHOLE SHOP! ): Seriously!

Met up with everyone again! :D And we just walked to Cine and sat at the food court. Ah, I'm totally embarrassed now!HAHA! Shit man!

Saw these two guys wearing this shirt that says, " ask me for the details". Theresa and I wanted to go over to them and ask them, " so what are the details" but then we realized we were in school uni!

Anyway, It's daddy's birthday today! Going out for dinner now!

But at least you're still my day late friend
6:54 PM

Monday, July 23, 2007



I may not say it quite as much as I should,
When I say I love you,
Darling that means for good.
So open up your heart and let me in.
And I will love you till forever,
Until death do us part we'll be together,
So take my hand and hold on tight,
And we'll get there,
This I swear.

But at least you're still my day late friend
5:02 PM

Sunday, July 22, 2007



Sometimes some people can never be friends. No, it's not because they don't click well. Instead it's because there's so much past that they're trying to forget. No matter how hard they try to be bestfriends again, it just gets harder each time.

Apparently, Tuition today was way funny. Practically only Nicole, Trina and I were the ones laughing so much during tuition. Nicole got so worked up when I turned around to talk to Melvin! HAHA(!!) Wahlao, then she still dare to dare me! Funny shit.

Anyway, I'm sorry Han! =( I was about to go Keppel when my mum decided that it was too late and I really tried persuading, I really did. I'm so sorry.

But at least you're still my day late friend
10:25 PM

Saturday, July 21, 2007
I don't want to take you for granted,

Inter-club was alright. I was late man, Hahaaha shit. Screw my first game because it's like super bad. Yeah damn it. I hate how bowling can just change my mood. I should really learn how to control my emotions. Hah :D

Mummy came to my room to talk to me today. Told me some stuff and I got really pissed off though I didn't show it, if not she'll suspect even more. Screw it. Must you always read my messages whenever my phone is confiscated. What the heck is your problem, honestly. It's my privacy dude. No wonder when I had my phone back for a day, my messages were all deleted. Ah, screw it. I SERIOUSLY hate you when you do that.

I do hope your jaw is feeling better now ):
I'll cook you an egg,sometime! :D

But at least you're still my day late friend
11:53 PM

Hands are distant lullubies,

Battle of the bands last night. Was awesome, just that ACS I didn't win this year. Barker won again.Yeah man. Met quite a few people there and I really don't know what to say. My heels were killing me then, honestly. I could barely walk. Thank you for not abandoning me.

Cabbed home with Narmy, Shimin and Clara since they were sleeping over at my place. Weijie, Boon How, Bjorn and Han came over to my house in the 'early' morning. HAHA. Ordered Macs and everything so we all just sat by the pool talking and eating :D funny conversations, really.

Clara and I had the luxury of having the whole Queen size bed to ourselves, while Trina, Shimin and Narmy had to share another Queen size bed. HAHA. Clara ah Clara, always cramp. (:

I'm screwed now. HAHA. whatever man. Oh, and people say that being short is cute okay! ( I'm short!!) HAHA. But guess what? I still want to reach my ideal height of 1.65m! :D

Pictures( just a few of them).

Clara/Twin! :D

Shimin! :D

Trina, Narmy!

Michelle, Tania, Trina!

:D

<3

Love,

<3

Bye

But at least you're still my day late friend
4:22 PM

Thursday, July 19, 2007



{Edited/11:08pm}
I'm HIGH IN THE SKY now(!!) Why? Because friends are staying over tomorrow, after Battle of the Bands! Yeah, baby! I'm so happy now! :D

For once, I'm really loving life! :D Clara! We're suppose to watch Disney movies on our next stay-over, remember?

Thursday, Friday, Saturday. YAY! <3
I love you(!!)
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Poor little knee,

I was mentally tortured in school today by my fellow classmates' mental games. Especially Susanna's and Winzu's.

Ah, but guess what? I manage to solve all the games! :D Thank you very much!

But at least you're still my day late friend
6:38 PM

Wednesday, July 18, 2007
I don't ever want to see you again,

{Edited/9:41pm}
I try to study time and time again and guess what? I simply can't. I get distracted by the simplest things. For example, my bed is one BIG distraction, plus Arwin's Lava Lamp(HAHA!) and of course this lousy tablet of mine(but I still thank you for existing).

I'm going to remind myself once again. "Don't do last minute revision for Common Test 2!" Yes, I know. I'm trying to start my revision now, like NOW(!!)

Ah, Friday please come soon! Number 1, it's the last day of the school week. Number 2, there's battle of the bands, Number 3, friends might be staying over! Oh please let that day be great.
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I Wish You Enough,
"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright. I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish enough 'hello's' to get you though the final 'Goodbye'. "

School was absolutely boring. Except for SS because Poony Baby came to relief the class for L. This time I really tried to be a good girl, since he claims that I kept giving him trouble last year. -.- Blah.

Oh, and during A Math, C said something really funny. Because the class was very restless today, so C kept ringing this bell that the class has on the teacher's table.
C," I'm ringing this bell to call all your souls back!"
Class, "HAHAHA!"
No wonder someone is so attracted to him huh? Heh.

I feel so tired and giddy now! ):
Nobody's home except Trina and I.

But at least you're still my day late friend
5:05 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007
I don't want to do this alone,



WO AI QIU JIN PIN! <3

{Edited/6:10pm}
School was all about talking to Jin Pin! :D

During English, my group and Michelle's group had to debate about if the legal sex age should be raised to 18. I somehow became the proposition group. (Notice the word somehow, Michelle? HAHA)

However, I ended up debating with Nicole and Michelle. Wtf, they're damn it scary. And guess what? Nicole asked V to let us have another debate tomorrow. Wth, Stupid Nicole! >:(! Now I'm going to die while debating with them. No, I don't care. My group WILL win that debate. Watch out ah.

During assembly, we each had to write a letter to this special friend or family and it'll really be sent out yo. I ended up writing it to K(doubt he'll expect a letter from me), but yeah. And I wrote another letter to Han, while slotting it into Nicole's envelop, since she was writing a letter to him too!:D

& Nicole is the most retarded kid ever because she says I'm retarded just because for a moment when I was talking to her, I said my brain had no oxygen?!?! -.-

Geography Mock Exam was crap. Majority of the class was practically copying the answers from the textbook man. & A Math Mock Exam is stupid because I only did 3 questions out of 8.

HAHA. I'm so happy because you can go BOB! :D
I love you.
All I want to do is stand close to you,
Be by your side.
All I want to do is make the world revolve,
Around you and I.


But at least you're still my day late friend
9:42 PM