I'm sorry.
I really don't know who are the ones who would leave and who are the ones who would stay.
I really don't know why I'm so afraid of people leaving.
I really don't know what to expect next.
I really don't know how I lost it all.
I mean, who does?
(Why can't friends forever ever come? I really feel so alone now, somehow)

Bjorn, you're right. I'm really too sensitive. But I really don't want to be like this. I really don't =(. I really want to just not care about anything and just be like you, love life. I simple can't. I tried, but I can't.